I'll show you how;

2011-12-11T21:15:00.000-08:00

生平第一次为母亲感到悲伤而不停哭泣，

心里一直默念着‘外公怎么会变成这样的人。

不停的回想起外公把小时候的我带大的样子，

跟现在的他比对，真是天壤之别。

不管是心灵身心性格一个都不例外。

怎么会这样？真的怎么会这样？？

就算他变成了老小孩也不至于这样吧。

伤透了妈妈的心，也伤透了我的心。

2011-04-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

因为太痛苦。如果不笑，受不了。

2010-10-05T16:28:00.000-07:00

<3 x100000000000000000000000

2010-09-29T17:38:00.000-07:00

CHOREOOO <3

2010-08-31T22:43:00.000-07:00

STEP UP 3 WAS AWESOME with the company of 3 very amusing people.

2010-08-10T08:39:00.000-07:00

2010-05-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.

~ George Bernard Shaw

2009-11-27T21:59:00.000-08:00

Mm I guess I experienced the biggest blow I've ever had at around the end of October. I'll remember every little detail that happened within that 24-hour period. The good and the bad, as usual. ?OCTOBER2009, I'll never forget you. The span of the beginning of October to the end of October, a fact of reality changed my life forever and I'm so not exaggerating.

I remembered it as a rather fine Monday morning and I was nearly late for morning assembly. Nothing ominous, not even anything close. Ran into CT and co-CT: "She's here. Follow me after morning assembly." SHIT. Before I knew it, the four of us followed co-CT into a meeting room and the truth was just laid out like that. Just that none of us wants to face the fact, still bearing a little hope here and there. I started frantically smsing people and telling them about it when I was still rational. Then everything went past in a blur. Called my parents, see VP etc. Came out of GO, saw Yanling, Jingles, Erik, Jiayan, Cheryltan and Livia. Almost all of them were crying. I would never forget that moment, NEVER. Not even if I get dementia when I grow old. I've never felt so powerless and helpless in my entire life. The ultimate Qinyan with wonderful social skills just felt so, so helpless and guilty. I was just in no position to calm them when I was like shit myself. For a moment, we all just hugged and cried altogether. It was at that time when every little moment I spent with every single one of them just flashed past my mind really fast and I couldn't stop crying. It felt like something that people get to experience when they are about to die. Maybe that was when my soul was dying. After a while, they started to rattle on and discuss about what I can do from then on, exploring all the possible alternatives etc. That's when I began to realise I can't live without all my friends. I just can't imagine how some people can survive without friends, seriously. Asked my parents for permission to stay in school for a while. Walked around school with them to reflect think hard about everything and we finally sat down on the third floor in the PE block. Went to the canteen for lunch, bad news spread really fast. People came up to me asking me if I'm okay and everytime I would just break down, guess I was really emotionally unstable then. But sensibly speaking, it was really too much. I remember Jolyn coming up to me, crying really badly. I've never seen her so sad before. Not even when she got back O Level HCL result slip, I felt so sorry and guilty. I've never expected that my problem could so much sadness and harm to the people around me. But the feeling really sucks when you stop moving together with the current batch that you've been with for almost five years.

From then on was half a month of buffer period, was really busy with PW and apart from busy appealing, I slowly got used to the whole idea. I've been thinking a lot and I would like to sincerely apologise to my family, friends and everyone around me who cares about me and whom I care about. And thankyou all for willing and being able to accept my current state.

I guess one reason why I could bring myself to blog about it is that I'm ready to face life as it is, and not think and act like the carefree and happy-go-lucky Qinyan everyone knows me as. This is a really bad fall and I don't like it, I mean which idiot will like it seriously. But I've learnt a lot within the one month and I'm serious. I've learnt that there are consequences to everything you do, good or bad. And eventually, you are the one who's responsible for whatever you've done and you're the one who has to face the consequences cause only you can be responsible for whatever that has happened anyway. No one can take your place whatsoever. It's when horrible things like that happen when you learn to realise how you've been taking all the things you've always had and all the people who care about you and are always around you for granted and how you actually can't live without them.

People around me say I've changed quite a bit within this one month: I've lost my energy, my usual bubbliness, and that I've matured quite a bit. They didn't make it sound like a good change, but I guess there's no use making a big fuss out of it. I expected things to turn out this way. Life goes on, and I have to move on so that I won't be left behind even more. I guess wounds need time to heal, so one fine day I'll still be able to bounce back to my real self.

Another thing: I had the awesomest birthday ever even though 17 is an ugly number but I felt really loved. Mm I'll post photos another time when I'm too free and have nothing better to do.

2009-09-08T06:25:00.000-07:00

WOULD YOU'ALL PLEASE JUST STOP.

2009-09-07T23:44:00.000-07:00

OMG FOR ONCE I DREAMT OF STUDYING.

Looks like I'm getting stressed for the first time in the whole of Year 2009. I suppose that's a good thing since promos is nearing? But like everyone says, you still have to do something about the stress, if not what's the point?

/Edit
And you know you totally suck. First I dream of you, now I can even dream of your friend. Or maybe there's something wrong with me, shitz.

Is this what I really want?

2009-09-06T18:19:00.000-07:00

Another one after so long.

It made me realise that blissful dreams can be misleading, very misleading indeed.

And I'm tired (from thinking)

/Edit
of you.

2009-09-04T03:20:00.000-07:00

LAST SCHOOL DAY OF THE TERM: (Guess how amazingly I spent it)

1st AMAZING THING I DID: Reached school at 3.10pm to hand in my epic fail EOM.

2nd AMAZING THING I DID: Inconsiderately called Yanling to get out of her house (when she was already comfortably at home mugging) to go SOMEWHERE to 'study'.

3rd AMAZING THING I DID: Told her to go PS Starbucks when there aren't any seats left.

4th AMAZING THING I DID: Suggested that we go Esplanade Library instead. (Reason: Cause it's pretty)

5th AMAZING THING I DID: Wasn't sane while walking through Citylink and therefore got pounced on by Melody and Nicholas. (Thanks for giving me a shock of my life, you wonderful THINGS)

6th AMAZING THING I (or rather, WE) DID: Mugged in Esplanade Library for LESS THAN AN HOUR (Reason: Cause the library was about to close)

In conclusion, THANKYOU BFF. <3

Fish

2009-08-17T08:47:00.001-07:00

2009-08-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

This is what happens when two extremely polite individuals who are extremely bored and/or sian of studying start smsing each other: THEY (almost) NEVER STOP.

Wanted to include an excerpt of those messages full of funny shit but decided not to, lazyy heh. Anyway, freak 43/44 days left to promos and I'm still not catching up and I just wasted another weekend on PW, wow. And currently I feel like shit, but still slightly reflective though that's why I'm blogging. Hmm celebrating Erik's birthday later, excitinggg.(Shhh) :D

2009-07-24T21:42:00.000-07:00

MR LYON: "Oh Qinyan! It's good to know that you actually exist!" (Y)

Anyway it's been more than one whole month since I've last blogged. Apparently lots of stuff have happened as always.

The GOOD:
Hmm not much, maybe just that I AM CURRENTLY IN THE AWAKENED MODE. (Y) And I finally FINALLY came to my senses and realised that I was in default mode all along after going through JeremyNg's very sincere lecture.

The BAD:
Okay by now, I've already passed the period of sadness/regret whatsoever but still, MY CT RESULTS WERE DISGUSTINGLY HORRENDOUS. I deserved it anyway, didn't really bother to study, SLAP MYSELF.:/ And close friends around me are getting attached one after another, wah sian. It's not that I'm jealous or whatever, in fact I'M EXTREMELY HAPPY FOR THEM, really. Just that I'm feeling a few gaping holes and a certain level of emptiness in my circle of friends at times but oh well, I guess some things can't be helped. They just happen.

I've learned quite a great deal after going through several ups and downs for the past few weeks. Was a little emotionally unstable and fell ill. Flu and fever. D: WHO WANT H1N1 COME TO ME HOHO. Anyway, I would like to thank everyone who comforted, encouraged and cheered me up for the past few weeks. JINGLES, ERIK, YANLING, JIAYAN, LIVIA, MENGXIA, CANDICE and whoever I left out: THANKYOU FOR BENG THERE FOR ME AND ALL. <3

I realise I didn't announce some wonderful news: YANYU IS BACK. YES SHE IS BACKKKKK. :DDD

/Edit
I AM GOING TO ACE PROMOS I TELL YOU.

2009-06-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

140609 = ROMANTIC MUGGING SESSION WITH ERIK.

Impromptu-ly decided to go Esplanade Library together cause anyway I had to go look for stuff to prepare for TSD CTs. : Saw something really cuckoo on the train: Water + soap, germs no hope. -.- Esplanade library's an overwhelmingly arsty place, but pretty still. Couldn't stop talking then and that was when I started hearing about someone getting swine flu and people getting quarantined and stuff. D: So apparently we TRIED to study then we wanted food. I bought an Oreo muffin and Erik paid frigging EIGHT BUCKS for her Alfredo pasta and all she got was this little portion of tasteless spaghetti and sauce. :/ Then we digressed for about an hour or so and Erik came to her senses all of a sudden and we had to go back to study. Left the library at around eight and walked over to Marina Square to get dinner. The rest of the night was really romantic whatsoever: we walked along Singpore River, went to stare at the Merlion and went to The Fullerton Hotel's very pretty toilet and there was a wedding being held, and apparently after awhile the two of us started fantasizing about stuff. :3

WE TOTALLY FELT LIKE TOURISTS but it was quite fun anyhow. :D

2009-06-11T21:02:00.000-07:00

Today is by far almost the best day I've had since the beginning of June hols. AWESOME DATE WITH JOLYN, XINYAN & XINYUAN. :DDD It's been so longgg since I've last went out with them. So yes, we were supposedly planning to celebrate Jolyn's belated Seventeenth and to give her a belated surprise hoho. So then the three of us were wonderfully planning to meet around 1/2h earlier to buy a cake for her and GUESS WHAT. WE ALL OVERSLEPT (including Jolyn), WOW. Our wonderful plan turned really ridiculous so in the end, all four of us just met at Somerset mrt altogether. -.- Went to Mrs Field's in Cine and bought her a medium birthday brownie: JOLYN'S SEXY SEVENTEENTH. <3 Lunch at Chicago's Steakhouse and catching up was gooood. Then there was this very funny part of the day: the waiter started performing magic for us. 2 DIAMONDS ZOMG AHAHAA, inside joke. And then, KBOX after SO MANY MONTHS. :D FIVE HOURS OF SINGING = (Y).
And we ended our wonderful date by camwhoring in the toilet. PHOTOS PLEASEEE. :D

2009-06-04T22:39:00.000-07:00

Okay I've decided that I SHALL BLOG MORE OFTEN.
And that I shall compensate with AN ULTRA-LONG POST for all the very short posts I've been publishing since the beginning of the year.

When I come to think about it, my life's actually been rather happening and that's all thanks to various people in 3C, Fencing and TSD, and you all know who you are. Thankyou all for making RJ life so much more bearable and even a little enjoyable despite all those horribly stupid problems I've been facing.

So yes, JUNE HOLS. The period of time everyone who's sane has been looking forward to. I've been saying this for almost a few weeks now, I NEED TO: 1)SLEEP 2)MUG 3)SHOP 4)CATCH UP WITH TONS OF PEOPLE (And this is extremely urgent)

How cool is this huh, that my life's so frigging happening that I don't even have time to catch up with the closest of my closest friends. It's kind of ridiculous whenever I see them or whatsoever the first thing I'll blurt out is WE NEED TO GO OUT.

And of course, I desperately need to mug, though I somehow just can't bring myself to start studying properly. CTs omg. Bio: This is one of the only subjects that I can actually bear to stare at for slightly more than an hour. Chem: I have nothing to say. Math: I'm still stuck in the Binomial&Poisson era. TSD: I HAVE NO FRIGGING IDEA WHAT'S THE IMPORTANCE OF RITUALS IN THE THEATRE OF THE ABSURD. Well, at least GP's over and guess what I nearly FROZE TO DEATH in MPH during GP and I'm so not kidding. Quote Erik: Omg Qinyan YOUR LIPS ARE BLUE. So there. And PW, hmm it's kind of a little beyond description.

Almost SIX DAYS of June hols have passed and I've barely done anything productive/constructive.

Trainings every Tuesday and lots of catching up to do, what a life.

2009-05-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

I've just come to a sudden realisation that:

THE WORLD IS FULL OF ASSHOLES.

2009-05-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

WHAT A LIFE.

/Edit
You come by my side like a dream.

2009-05-05T22:53:00.000-07:00

ARGHH LIFE IS GETTING A LITTLE UNBEARABLE.

Omg I seriously don't know what's with me recently. I've been emotionally unstable on almost a daily basis and apparently, this is not good. THIS IS BAD, VERY BADDD. D: People are just giving me all sorts of shit now, making me feel all fed up and stressed out etc. It's like the trivialest of the trivialest things that just accumulate and most probably one fine day, all those shit will just make me explode and break down etc, and I don't and won't know what will happen next.

I NEED TIME, DESPERATELY.

/Edit
If there's nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night.

2009-04-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

I FAIL.

2009-04-11T00:42:00.000-07:00

I MISS RG SO SOO MUCH.
Now I'm just surrounded with all sorts of scary people.

Everyone's been telling me all the different things about different people and at the end of the day, there's just this whole chunk of very unreliable information stuck in my head. I don't even know who and what to believe these days.

ARGHH WHY IS RJ LIFE SO COMPLICATED.

Now when I come to think of it, RG was such a home-ly place to be in. It's SO MUCH COSIER AND WARMER. And all of us didn't even bother to appreciate such a wonderful environment back then. COMPLAINING AND BITCHING were all we did.

And look at what we're experiencing right now: Asian version of Gossip Girls.

But it's not like time can rewind, so I shall learn to move on with life soon.

/Edit
I should get focussed real soon. :/

2009-04-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

FENCING CAMP'09 WAS AWESOME!
I LOVE GROUP ONE LOTSXZXZXZZ.

Beatrice
Dongran
Ha My
Lynnette
Qinyan

Aloysius
Gabriel
Leonard
Mark
Shi Kai
Vince

Group One exclusive (fail) hthts, dinners, outings FTW! ♥

/Edit
I'm so SO glad that our BEEEG batch became so bonded during camp and I actually became myself all over again for the ONE-AND-A-HALF days since the first day of school. And frankly speaking, now I love fencing a lot more than class and at some particular moment I actually felt that fencing camp was SO MUCH MORE FUN than ophir. :O

2009-03-19T18:58:00.000-07:00

I LOVE 10S03C BECAUSE:
1) Mount Ophir was awesome
2) Class lunch and PUSH were awesome
3) Class outing was awesome

/Edit
I realised I'm still not myself yet. I don't know exactly how long I'll take to go back to my old wonderful self completely and thoroughly so I want to apologise to all my friends out there that sorry if I've been disappointing you with all my weird behaviours and nonsense all this while, pleaseplease give me some time. I promise and am trying veryVERY hard to be myself all over again.

2009-03-04T17:48:00.000-08:00

QINYANTHEGREAT IS REALLY GLAD THAT SHE IS STARTING TO BE HERSELF ALL OVER AGAIN. :)

2009-02-15T22:38:00.000-08:00

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand
Where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown
Along the way
And just when I
I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow
And despair

And I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand
When I'm weary
Well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you
When you say

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you
When you need a friend

I promise you
I'm always there
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints
In the sand

/Edit
The cold walls are taunting, just where's the warmth within?

2009-02-13T00:39:00.000-08:00

1. I AM IN 10S03C.
2. I MISS O'RHSOME LOTZZXZXZ.
3. MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS ARE NOT WORKING OUT VERY WELL.
4. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (I'm sorry everyone, I never do anything this year D: )

2009-02-07T00:36:00.000-08:00

O'Tiero HH09 O'rhsome!

What more can I say :)

2009-01-27T19:54:00.000-08:00

Agahgahgahh totally wasted my time on the 23rd. Supposed to go to school for hockey trials but OH THE LAZINESS. Met yanling at J8 and went to eat sakae AND we subconsciously forgot to go for hockey trials. :O AND YAMI YOGHURT YESHH. :DDD Then we were so bored we didn't know what to do. I mean like what can you do in J8 right, seriously. So we went to Haagen Daz to secretly sit sit. And then (this is so funny) this teenage waiter came to us with the menus, we pretended to look through obviously and then yanling phrased her sentence so funnily that I couldn't do anything but stare, "Mm, sorry can we not order anything?" Silence. "I mean, we don't want to eat anything from the menu." And guess what the waiter said. "Uhh, no. You must order something." ?! The rest's for you to imagine whatsoever cause the funny part ends here. : We went to the Children's Collection in Bishan library and chris came to meet us. And after some time we went back to J8 to meet yuyue after her hockey trials. AND I ATE ANOTHER YAMI YOGHURT YESHH. :DDD

2009-01-17T22:43:00.000-08:00

Hmm since everyone's been blogging about the first few days in RJ, I shall too.

Before school even started, I've been going to RJ on a daily basis (3 consecutive days actually but whatever) - TSD written test, TSD auditions, Open house. And hoho school officially started on the 15th. Met yanling, cheryl, jolyn, kalya and wanting at bishan and we endured the really longg walk to RJ together. And guess what, WE WERE LATE. D: Had tons of talks.

I shall proclaim this horrible fact: RJ's canteen is super very intimidating. D: Seriously. Oh and I didn't know that RJ has an ATM machine until yesterday. :O

Okay so JIP, Orientation and, HORRIBLE SCHOOL LIFE. (N)

2009-01-17T22:07:00.000-08:00

I only realised HOW MUCH I treasured () when I was going to lose (), but it would have been way too late.

Omg I can't believe I nearly became blind.

2009-01-11T10:33:00.000-08:00

I AM SO FREAKED OUT.

1. TSD written test on the 12th.

2. Getting back Higher Chinese on the 12th.

3. TSD practical audition on the 13th.

4. Open House on the 14th.

5. And school reopens on the15th! D:

What kind of life is this manzxzxzxxzxzz.

2009-01-05T19:07:00.000-08:00

I will never forget 3rd November 2009.
And I will never forget that taxi driver.

2009-01-01T21:59:00.000-08:00

Hah I guess it's been eons since my previous post.

I miss 2008.
I really miss TWOTHOUSANDANDEIGHT.

I miss RGS.
The mugging, the fun, those moments.
The teeny-weeny school compound, the teachers, the juniors, a friend.

Thankyou, everyone who has been:
Enlightening me
Helping me learn and grow
& MAKING MY DAY
throughout Year 2008.

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2008-10-05T07:45:00.001-07:00

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity

2008-10-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

Anyway.
Was quite pissed.
Cause I accidentally deleted the html for my previous tagboard.
):<

2008-10-04T21:59:00.000-07:00

HEE.
121 MERIT FOR PIANO EXAM.
:)

2008-10-03T19:33:00.000-07:00

Truckloads of things have happened.
After nearly one month of options, checked papers today.
Bio and physics.
Speechless.
All I want to say is I need to get above 2.8 for my overall GPA and 11 units.
I NEED.
REALITY CHECK.
Math test next wednesday.
Philo COI also next week.
O Level HCL on 5th November.
And I'm totally slacking all the while.
No doubt, watching youtube.
:(

2008-08-29T19:59:00.000-07:00

Guess what.

EYAs are over!:D

I can't believe it.
I cannot believe it.
Ahh time really flies.

2008-07-31T19:49:00.000-07:00

Today is damn crap.
But I'm glad that I've grown.

I never wanted to believe it ever existed.
But I realised I've been lying to myself all along.

I've grown and saw those true colours.
I've grown and I'm not that innocent me you'all once knew anymore.
I've grown and learnt to appreciate them.
I've grown and learnt that THIS IS LIFE.

I HAVE GROWN AND EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED.

2008-07-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

I dreamt a really nice dream today.
It's one of my nicest dreams since that parachute dream, considering all the previous ones were nightmares. D:
Ahh but after all, it's only a dream.

(Oh how I wish it would be a dream come true.)

2008-06-28T08:49:00.000-07:00

Ahh it's been so longg since I've last blogged. Been very busy lately. Just wanted to type something for the sake of typing something. Lots of things have happened since February. And I've grown a lot a lot. Argh forget it I'm tired shall update properly next time.

2008-06-28T08:45:00.000-07:00

I thought you gave up.

2008-02-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

79 words

free Touch typing

THIS IS LIKE THE FIRST TIME EVER THAT I'VE GOT MORE THAN FIFTY-SOMETHING WORDS PER MINUTE AND I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF HOHO. :D

2007-12-01T15:04:00.000-08:00

LearningLab showed us this last monday.:O

2007-12-01T14:49:00.000-08:00

Forever.

2007-09-21T19:25:00.000-07:00

AIYAH I knew today was going to be a bat day cause when i boarded the school bus in the morning I heard my favourite song on the radio and then SUDDENLY it got cut off by the national anthem.):

All thanks to kennethtan i need to run in this time of the year. And obviously it was screwed LA. Early in the morning RUN TWOPOINTFOUR ALONE SOMEMORE. But today very goot cause got nice people come and support me. And you know what I thanked them by stopping completely after the third round cause I wanted to puke. XIEXIE NI AH BREAKFAST. And I was fast okay, fastest in my whole life. SEVEN minutes for THREE rounds. And hence after stopping completely, I regretted. But now when I come to think of it, I would rather stop completely than to puke and collapse on the track for the whole world to see.

Got back history paper and I was feeling very grossed out by myself for always not finishing almost all of my papers. But anyway point is I FAILED. I've never failed history in my entire life so I was feeling UTTERLY UTTERLY HORRIBLE and so something very expected happened: I cried. AIYAH but whatever LA got back already also can't do anything about it so I'm determined to work hard already AHH THEN WHY AM I BLOGGING NOW!? Okay I think my next post will appear like AFTER THE EOYs.

I believe you'll come back to me someday.

2007-09-12T12:08:00.000-07:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Qinyan!

If you chew gum while peeling qinyan then it will stop you from crying!
Only one person in two billion will live to be qinyan!
A lump of qinyan the size of a matchbox can be flattened into a sheet the size of a tennis court!
Lightning strikes qinyan over seven times every hour.
The Church of Scientology was founded in 1953, at Washington D.C., by qinyan.
Qinyan can't drink - she absorbs water from her surroundings by osmosis.
If you put a drop of liquor on qinyan, she will go mad and sting herself to death.
There are six towns named qinyan in the United States.
Research indicates that qinyan will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas!
Qinyan is the only king without a moustache on the standard pack of cards.

2007-09-01T19:48:00.000-07:00

you can't make it.you just CANNOT make it.

2007-09-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

blog is dead.
i'm dead.okay not dead, but almost.
september hols is screwed cause it's worse than normal school days.
so SO many things changed since January but i can't bear to bring myself to talk about them.
ARGHH HOW LOSER.

you caused us way too much sorrow.

2007-08-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

AHH SHE'S SO ADORABLE.
(found it on KAHBS blog)

2007-08-04T18:41:00.000-07:00

an eye for an eye makes the world go blind.

you know what i mean, yes?

2007-08-04T18:37:00.000-07:00

'here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart'

2007-08-04T18:34:00.000-07:00

When you squeeze an orange, what do you get?

You get orange juice. You don't get grapefruit juice, you don't get apple juice, you don't get milk. You get orange juice. Everytime. People are like that. They can only give you what they have inside. So if her character is giving you so much trouble, it's because she's nothing but trouble on the inside. She's just delivering what's in her heart into the universe.

2007-07-27T20:21:00.000-07:00

MATH:
okay today's math test was a killer and i didn't manage to finish and everything and i had some post-math failure symptom but since it's over already i shall not think abourrit anymore.

GUIDES:
quite alot of traumatising stuff happened and i'm lazy to elaborate.AIYAH tomorrow's urban hike and THERE GOES THE PATROL IDENTITY.

so BYEBYE.

2007-07-22T10:54:00.000-07:00

等一颗秋天的果
不只要阳光配合
从冬天的雪飘落
盼到春风吹拂

等一束爱的花朵
不只两颗心着火
从思念到手相握
快乐伴着泪水过

you are my love
我多么的爱你
我多么的想你
就在这一刻

you are my love
我多想拥抱你
要和你在一起
只比永远少一天
也可以

2007-07-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

some things are better left untouched.

BACK(:

2007-07-03T18:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO I'M BACK! (:
okay anyway,shanghai was GREAT and I LOVE&MISS IT SO MUCHH.D:
had learninglab that day and i saw something really funny on the way.

when i was walking down the underpass to united square,i saw this guy's shirt and I TELL YOU it's really comical okay.at first from far i thought it was this PUMA shirt and then when he came closer,i realised the 'TUNA' was in the puma font,and that spot where the puma logo was supposed to be was replaced by a TUNA/fish/whatever. I really wanted to laugh out loud but i was still sane so mm i didn't.i think he saw me sniggering but AIYAH nevermind that. >:)

SCHOOL'S REOPENING SOON BOWWOWWOW.

2007-05-23T19:19:00.000-07:00

MONDAY:
class phototaking
formal shot
I TELL YOU AH THAT ADAMPHOTO MAN SO ANNOYING GO AND PULL YANLING AWAY FROM ME AND MADE HER STAND AT THE BACK ROW >:( oh by the way i was standing in the middle row EEEYUH i thought i am RATHER TALL but nevermind.
candid(?) shot
me and gohhong were hugging real close sounds quite wrong but HAHAA IT WAS FUNNAYE.
informal shot
this is MUCH BETTER cause yanling&chengchia came down from the back to MY ROW :)
we just hugged together cause we couldn't think of any NICENICE pose :/

after school meyanling practically RAN out of school to the busstop and met jolynxinyan there so we went to eat lunch at burgerking [in order to satisfy XINYAN'S INNER DESIRE] together.
OHH and we met fangyi&gang and EMELYNJOYCENETTETANVERA so cool right!
and then cause guides phototaking starts at 3.30pm so meyanling ditched jolyn&xinyan and went to heeren to grab HSIANGCHENGCHIA's birthday present.
cause i was going to be late so we RAN up the escalator looking like TOTAL IDIOTS and RAN to the adidas shop then we bought it and RAN down the escalator to meet jolyntan to go back to school.
we had to figure our way out of takatowerb and we were LOST ALL THANKS TO THE STUPID ONE WAY ROAD NEAR HEEREN/CINE/WHATEVER.finally we saw the bus stop and rushed back to school to change.
something happened in the class but i do not wish to talk abourrit so blahblah.like CHANGXINEN says, since i'm of a MUCH HIGHER LEVEL than her i shall toleratetolerateTOLERATE :)
then valerierachel came to our class and we went to guidestable for uniform check and meanwhile yanling LONER-LY went to canteen to wait for me YAY SHE'S THE GREATEST :)

guides phototaking
THE HUMONGOUS GUIDE POPULATION CAUSED ME TO LOSERLY STAND ON THE ADAMPHOTO MAN'S EQUIPMENT CASE and FOR GOONESS SAKE i was trying SO HARD to balance myself blahblahblah BUT GOOT THING IS EMELYN WAS STANDING IN FRONT OF ME for FORMAL SHOT and that THE TWO OF US BEING STILL IN ONE PIECE AFTER BRAVING THROUGH THE WHOLE RETARDED STANDING ON THE ADAMPHOTO MAN'S EQUIPMENT CASE THING TOGETHER.HAHAA I LURB YOU EMELYNLIM! :)

changed out and met up with CHAOren and cabbed to wheelock with xinen&emelia to buy birthday card for chengchia.they bought her rubiks cube and since we couldn't find nice cards we bought her a STORY OF YOU cd.OHH YES THE FUNNY PART WAS XINEN STARTED LOOKING AROUND FOR AN APPROPRIATE PRESENT FOR YINGLING and in the end we ended up buying her a DOLPHIN.then yanling had to go home cause she need to do the cd thing but since i'm decorating the BALL i could still loiter around for awhile.SORRY MUM&DAD CAUSE I SKIPPED LEARNINGLAB I WAS LATE ANYWAY PLUS IT WAS MRSLOO PLUSPLUS IT WAS VERBAL PRESENTATION, PROMOTING YOUR SCHOOL AND SOUNDED RATHER RUBBISH, SO I'D RATHER NOT GO THAN GOING THERE TO EMBARRASS MYSELF.so mexinenemelia went to lido macs and started eating&talking blahblahblah.then after quite some time we left and i went to meet fangyi at united square and went home :)

TUESDAY:
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY HSIANGCHENGCHIA!
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY YINGLING!
ARGH stupid bai embarrassed me in front of the whole class today and in the end i ended up loserly telling her to JI XU SHANG KE ahh OMG.
ponned abit of philo with huiqiyanling :)
CHEER UP CHRISANDALEE!

WEDNESDAY:
nothing much to say FULLSTOP

2007-05-23T18:20:00.000-07:00

okay guess what.my gpa's going to be totallytotallyTOTALLY SCREWED.
eng: 20/40 I PASSED OKAY since they moderated so YAY VERY GOOT and now my dad officially HAS NO RIGHT to kick me out of learninglab YESSS! :)
math: 30/60 IT'S A PASS and so YOU SHALL NOT DESPISE ME.
chinese: 59/100 it's looks QUITE BAT but since our whole level didn't do very well it's still rather acceptable?
ss: 10/15 NOT VERY GOOT BUT NOT THAT BAT either.but why am i forever getting TEN OUT OF FIFTEEN for this!
physics: 33/60 considering that ONE ULTRAVIOLET MARK :)I'M JUST STUPID LA HUH.like hello physics was the easiest paper and i actually just SCRAPED THROUGH A PASS?
bio: 26andahalf/55 I FAILED BIO BY ONE MARK OKAY HOW SADDENING.and i was actually QUITE CONFIDENT OF AT LEAST GETTING A PASS.OMG this is ridiculous.
chem: 24/80 FAILEDDD HORRIBLYTERRIBLY :( i thought i would at least JUST PASS or something.
history: 16/30 AIYAYAHH I DON'T KNOW WHY I'VE ALWAYS BEEN JUST PASSING HISTORY THIS YEAR when last year i will always get like FOURPOINTZERO :(

and my highest gpa this year is a THREEPOINTTWO for ss i think.AHH and believe it or not i don't have a single 3.6 nor 4.0 SO SADDENING.

but since everything's over now i can't really do anything about it so i shall stop complaining :)
i think i REALLY SHOULD BUCK UP for next semester or else i can just go jump down the building or something.

2007-05-23T17:55:00.000-07:00

all this is getting way too complicated.
no one understands me.
and now i realised i don't even understand myself.
why is everything going so wrong?
why like that why like that WHY LIKE THAT?
now i'm feeling really disappointed in everyone and everything.
but strangely i don't even know why i'm feeling this way.
sorry to those whom i've irritated/misunderstood/misjudged/whatever.
i'm just too confused now and i don't know what to do.
i'm supposed to be a HAPPY GIRL but i doubt i'll ever become one.
i didn't expect anything like this to happen and now everything seems to be so un-forseeable.
AHH ZHANGQINYANZHANGQINYAN STOP BEING SO EMO LAA.

2007-05-10T18:42:00.000-07:00

&i realised you two lied a horrible lie to me.
OMG YOU LIARS SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE.>:(

2007-05-10T18:28:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS THE DAY.(:
AIYAH I'M SO HAPPY&EXCITED NOW THAT EVERYTHING'S FINALLY OVER.
AND YES I REALISED I'M WRITING EVERYTHING IN CAPS.
ANYWAY,i screwed the whole MYA COMPLETELY/TOTALLY/THOROUGHLY.
AIYAH DIE LA.

english please let me get a 2.8&above or something.
bio please let me PASS.
ss my answer for question a is longer than my b HOW GREAT.
chem pleasePLEASE LET ME PASS OMG.
history my sourcebased is NONSENSE.
chinese I DIDN'T FINISH AIYAHH.
math I NEED TO PASS AND I HAVE TO PASSSSS.or else i'll just get killed by my mum the moment i get home.
physics THIS IS THE ONE&ONLY PAPER THAT I FELT WAS RATHER OKAY.
eeyuhyuh.100% CONFIRM CHOP STAMP DIE ALREADY LA.

urgh.okay since it's all over already i shall not waste my energy complaining anymore.(:
ANYWAY,today was FUN okay.
MEYANLINGCHERYLTAN WENT TO EAT LUNCH AT YOSHI THEN WE WENT WALKING AROUND CINE.WALK TALK STOP WALK TALK STOP.
then we went to talke neos and i realised that i haven't been taking those in years.okay no,maybe months.BUT STILL.okay yes,and we kept seeing/meeting VALERIEJOLYNXINYUAN THEY ALL.
okay so at around 2o'clock CHERYLTAN WENT TO MEET HER STEPH&SIXUAN so me and yanling continued walking around BY OURSELVES.

then we went hereen.
and we met CHERYLANNHUIQIXUANWEIAMANDAWEIWEI THEY ALL BY ACCIDENT SO COOL.

thenthen we went taka.
we were so hungry we went to buy this weird thing called the PRATA SAUSAGE ROLL or something like that i couldn't remember.AHH MY MEMORY'S GONE CASE.but anyway,it was quite nice LA.then I TELL YOU IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING OKAY.
cause our legs were tired so we went to sit at the fountain at the basement in between tower a&b and started eating there.we sat in between this bunch of elderlies but that's not the worst part okay I TELL YOU.then after that this old woman was practically STARING at me eating the prata sausage thing.and when i decided to turn and stare back at her too,she started speaking JAP and i couldn't understand her so i kept LAUGHING AND LAUGHING AHH OMG I FELT SO LOSER AIYAYAH.i thought she knew i didn't understand her until she started to talk with ENTHUSIASM and kept saying something like 'OISHI!' and obviously i don't understand and so i LAUGHED AND LAUGHED cause i didn't know what to say.and then i think when we left,the woman probably thought i was mad or something.
OMGOMG LA SO EMBARRASSINGGG.
AIYAH then after we walked around taka and ACCIDENTALLY met VALERIEJOLYNXINYUAN again.and we all started going GOOGOO&GAGA over the whole esprit thing.

then i had to leave cause my mum wanted me to go home early TO SLEEP.
so MEYANLING WENT TO ORCHARDMRT.and we ACCIDENTALLY met KAHBS&HWEEFANG.(:
and so irritating they went to watch spiderman3 and OHYES MEYANLING DIDN'T GO WATCH TWOHUNDREDPOUNDSBEAUTY.
aiyah nevermind.WE SHALL GO WATCH TOMORROW OR SOMETHING.(:

YUCK LA TOMORROW'S SCHEDULE IS SO DISGUSTING.:/

2007-05-05T19:13:00.000-07:00

& now i realised all the superficiality in this.

2007-05-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

i have so much to tell, but you are not there to hear it.
who else will when you won't even be there?

2007-05-01T16:33:00.000-07:00

okay i know i'm supposed to mugmugMUG now but i just don't have the mood to.
and yesterday's tll was really funny.
oh the racism.
TOHFANGYI+RYAN=SUPERPOWDERFUL RACIST PAIR.
haha and you know their racist jokes were so funny everyone couldn't take it so we just BURST OUT LAUGHING.
i know i shouldn't post racist jokes on the blogs but AIYAH.
Q: What is it when you see indians floating in a swimming pool?
A: Chin chow.
Q: What is it when you see an indian jumping down from a building?
A: Darkness falls.
Q: What is it when you see indians lining up in a straight line?
A: Barcode.
the relief teacher was feeling so bat that she's hearing racist jokes cause teachers were supposed to instil us with moral values i suppose.she was so fedup with us that she resorted to saying, "class, i'm half-indian you know."
and then ryan was like, "oooh then we shall talk about malays."
so she ended up saying, "and i'm half malay too."
and then she realised we were wasting too much time so she hurried us to brainstorm in pairs and finish up our one paragraph for the essay.since we were short of time,we persuaded her to let us write that ONE paragraph in pairs too.
and SHE DID.
she's NICE. (:

2007-05-01T16:12:00.000-07:00

she's stolen my life but what can i do?

NEWSKINYAY

2007-04-29T18:19:00.000-07:00

OKAY THERE YOU HAVE IT.
NEW skin.
i didn't intend it to be pink but aiyah nevermind.
AND DIE I JUST REALISED I'VE LOST MY TAGBOARD. urghh heck.

now i'm too fed up to mug for ANYTHING. [and ohyes i know i'm screwed don't need to remind me THANKYOUVERYMUCH] AHH MYA go away!

2007 is a DIGUSTING year.ahh disgusting disgusting PLAIN DISGUSTING.everything's so screwed now i don't know what to do.

STUPID sarabjit singh doesn't even know what he himself is teaching OMGOMG DIE LA.
with him,my physics is GONE CASE.
with segarra,my chem is also GONE CASE.
with achia,my bio is also also very GONE CASE.
sorry but you'all suck big time.
and there goes ALL THE SCIENCES.

arghh i think i shall stop procrastinating and go do my HISTORY FA.
byebye.

NOTHING MUCH.

2007-04-29T15:58:00.000-07:00

it's been SO LONGGG since i've last blogged OMG.
and to think that i'm making up for that with only FOUR sentences.
okay anyway,now i'm UTTERLY PISSED WITH MYSELF for everything i've done to myself and everyone around me.AHH what have i done?
2007 is sucha DISGUSTING number and i'm totally GUH-ROSSed out by it.
AND SHIT LA I JUST WASTED 48 HOURS ON DOING POINTLESS MATH.

AUSSIE!AUSSIE!AUSSIE!<3!

2006-12-26T20:11:00.000-08:00

hey!i know it's a really long time since the last time i've blogged.cause i was always lazy to.i'm sorry.cause now i feel really emotional and stuff.cause i really miss australia.i didn't want to come back.i'm feeling really OFF now,like what wenxin [my newfound friend cum senior in my tour group] said.like there are kids and we enjoyed ourselves and had so much fun together.REALLY.oh yes.and those mocking at those 3 ACBCs were really funny.i'm just feeling too much to describe all those fun and those memories.i think i should just type out wenxin's letter.

Hey!(: i will really miss you too when we get back to singapore.currently outside my room trying to borrow light cos my gran's sleeping.haha.anyway,was hectic and extremely fun hanging with you.think the best part was the whole specs thing and the mocking at ACBCs was ultra mad.i know we both can't get over 'the incident' [this refers to that day,it was raining, and the oldest of the 3 ACBCs try to act gentlemanlike and used this yellow umbrella to 'escort' all the people to the coach.cause me and wenxin are the only 2 teenage girls,of course our 1st instinct will be to walk through the rain rather than letting him offer us the umbrella right.i mean like yeah,people our age.and so that giraffe was like aw...aww...awww...URGH!!!super irritating.],but one day if you meet them on the road,get back at them.give them double,one from me.boys-they are dumb.but honestly honestly,it was quite funny,what with their different frequency laughter and damn retarded act cool ways,esp giraffe.
embarrassed ourselves a fair few times in front of them [eg. the internet cafe incident],but they not happy come fight lah.if this trip is longer,we might really make a good video.oh man,that would be priceless.but i'll send you that video on PIG & GIRAFFE.that yawning was quite er,weird.his bro [PIG's younger brother] is cute though.and that TROLL,whalao,act friendly only lor.stupid GIRAFFE,cut his hair off.if next year i end up in the same school as PIG [cause both of them are sec 4s],whoa-faints.but most likely won't be i think.not so 巧.it would really be a pity if we hadn't gotten to know each other.then can't talk and laugh about so much stuff.oh yea just remember,that GIRAFFE act cool for what.got GF already still want so much attention.have the urge to flatten to his GIRAFFE hair!ask the little boy to do it like how he touched his ah gong's hair.funny please.
oh well,we can't have everything we want sometimes,so just gotta live with whatever humiliation.
everything was totally fun,esp the sand sliding and playing with water.thanks for being so cool about everything.you have been great.

okay.done.oh yes.and there's a bar of choc attached.haha.great friend huh!(:

phew.it really is phew.

2006-06-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

haven't really blogged for quite a long period.okay.um.i shall start with the psl interview on monday.it was really screwed.only for me i guess. so anyway wish everyone good luck.we went in threes.wells. the other talked quite a bit.but i didn't.i don't know. mayb i was too nervous or something.but maybe i'll just feel very depressed if i don't get in.and again i feel shi1 bai4.oh nvm about that.i think kahbs and jass have done well from the looks on their faces that day.sighs. anyway.there were two spsls and mr chu.and...oh forget it.the more i think about it the more i'll feel shi1 bai4.so the interview was very very very lonnnggg.after all that, kahbs, jass and me went to cine to watch mi3.it was really nice and freaky.i screamed okay.kahbs was holding the popcorn plastic and used it to sort of block her own view abit.cause she was kind of freaked out.and i was holding my purple 37d pouch which was kind of useless.cause my face is big.heh.what was jass doing?uh.cant really rmb.i think she was holding her bag?!hha.it was very thrilling. after that we went window shopping for quite a while.oh wanting's birthday present.it's really super belated.sorry wt.will get it for you soon.hope you don't mind.wed was class outing.i had 6 packets of marshmallow and 2 huge bags of charcoal to carry.jolene's mum was kind enough to drive kim, eunice and me to west coast.we went a bit lost and oh.i remembered the container and kidnapping thing.so funny.haha.finally we saw mac.which was goood.we were the earliest.so we started having breakfast.yumms.then almost everybody was present so we set off to our barbeque pit.it was really far in a faraway land.sighs.we walked for very long.it was number 2.so it was really deep inside the park.hmph.anyway.we had fun.we went t climb the pyramid and stuff.i was super freaked out okay.like fine,i've got a phobia of heights.urgh.whatever.then there was this really fun treasure hunt.i was starting to get sunburnt from then on.(: which is good.right?right.erh.then we went to mac again.teehee.like mac became our saviour.lala.oh and we had lunch.we had fried beehoon and lots of soft drinks which bad for our health.but do we care?no.as long as it can quench the thirst for our parched throats.lol.after lunch we had some games.polar bear and huntsmen,murderer,and yi4 mao2 qian2.haha.then we went to mac again.yes we went to mac again.heh.then there was this kidnapper thingy.hah.then play catching,dog and bone and stuff.then bbq.there were lotsa gross insects flying.iiiiieeeeeeeeeee.damn.and yes, the next day, report books. it was a 3.03 again. all because i slept during geog. from 3.2 to 1.2 and it became a 2.0 in the end.anyway, i thought i was going to get 2.something. so it was really phew.but i'm still pissed. i'm a failure.oooh lala.then 3rd june, hwa chong campfire.omg.it was super un-fun la ok. there wasn't any script or anything.><

!!!cheers!!!

2006-05-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

today is the last day of school for this term!wheeeee~~~~~~n ppl pon school. n ppl are starting to feel guilty. boohoo. JOLYN TAN!!! how can u abandon me n pauline and happily go hong kong!!??? huh?! YAO XINYUAN!! go shanghai without me!!! ahhhhhh. and today's lit was funnaye. aesthetics was funnier. jamaican farewell.i was like struggling with the melody line.reason is that i'm shi1 bai4.urgh.jolene is vonderful so she played the melody line,mj played the chord thingy or the accompaniment thingy.heck it.uh.so yanyu and me tried to sing. blah.blah. this is a really short post. cause i'm tired and everything. and it was supposed to be a draft anyway. i don't care.>.<

i LOVE AA'06!!!..'Walk of fame...a journey to remember'

2006-04-30T21:54:00.000-07:00

lalala..sighs..kaboom said i shud blog often so that MORE ppl will have MORE things 2 tag me..okok..i shall obey..omg..AA was so fun!!!but pissified by ushering duty..><..u noe wad..there were these huge bunchES of scouts approachin n stuff..n there was this guy who walked towards us to the main gate n said,"she was like staring at me lar!"..and i n jolyn were like wteva..like hallo, who would want 2 stare @ him?!..shity idiot..n then stupid maris stella scouts were super duper LATEcomers. uh-hm..like our AA was supposed 2 start @ like wad..6.55pm?..n den like 7++pm alredi..they were still not here..i bet in the end..they didn even come lar..heck them lar!!!..n the ushers missed so much of the concert..especially the PAPArazzi ppl..includin me..unfortunately..)))))))))))))):..n den we hurriedly went 2 change into our guides u..when we reached the hall..the movie ticketeers-ushers told us tt we dun need 2 change n we were like wtf!!??..our dear chiobu went 2 change back..*evil grins*..n oh..ri's break dance was nice..aci's too!!((((((((:..when annie gray-cheryl was singin,there was this scout who went up 2 her n whispered into her ear..whoooooooo..so sweet..hha..the refreshments were nice [but the cookie was SUPER hhhard!!!..oouch..den during refreshments time..there were two ri guys who went up 2 athena n jus sat beside her n started tokkin..n likeit's veh obvious tt they r complete strangers..i mean ya..n the sec 4 batch were all there staringgggggggggggg..omg..i mean she's chio but bim..anyway..good luck 2 her when she goes 2 rj..may be traumatized by them again..tsk tsk!!brb 4 now..wk 7 the death path..tests tests n more tests!!!ahhhhhhhh...

'06's march hols..sighs..

2006-03-19T02:23:00.000-08:00

okok..march hols started nicely but ended..pissifyinly..><..guides camp was fan-tastic!hha..day 1 was so hurried coz taxis juz wont come in time..but FORTUNATELY arrived in sch juz in time, but sadly 4gt 2 bring jolyn's consent form ahhhhhhhhh..so sry jolyn..but nvm..luckily she could stay 4 camp or else she would b damn pissed wif me lor..gt games n stuff..blahblahblah..den every1 in MOI patrol were soooooooooo enthu..juniors[vivien n sarah], batchmates[pauline n jolyn], seniors[weixian, yenyen n yuxin]..sooo blissful..den gt outdoor cooking...screwwwwwwwwwed..sadsadsad.."rain rain go away, come again another day"..yup..ruined by RAIN[nt the korean guy but the watery water frm the sky..-_-"'..hehe]..den gt triwizard tournament!..we gt 2nd!! 2ND u noe..(((((((((((((((((((((((((((:..haha..day 2 AA PREP became BE PREPARED..))))))))))))))))))))))): my grp did batch song...quite nice lah..ummm..den gt patrol lunch wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~..but the most impt ding neva do [other than eatin PIZZA HUT]..NEVA TAKE NEOPRINT!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!...too sad 2 say anyding..nvm shall take nxt time durin patrol dinner/outing/sth...((((((((((((((: came bk..nearly late..phewwwwwww..den gt games again..trick n trade was nice..((((((((((: but possessin some stolen item wasnt..))))))): lala okk..n gt lotsa stuff..n den CAMPFIRE!!!!!!!1st coy sunflower n our patrol were a band..our performance was soooooooooo cooooooooooooool okkkkkkkkkk..'ok'..hee..sad ding is it was raining AGAIN so ya..)))))): nxt day goin 2 break camp sooo saddddddddd..)))))))): but nvm nxt yr aso gt camp mah..hehe..BEIN OPTIMISTIC IS GOOOOOOOOOD!!!..den reachedhome..bathed..ate..n slept like a COMPLETE PIGGGGGGG..lol..2pm~7pm leh..5hrs lor..hai...wed went 2 watch i nt stupid too..FINALLY..so nice until i cried like shit..wahhhhhhhhhh...no activities...............----------------------went 4 piano lesson ytd..den 2day..i was so pissed by my mum n dad..my dad alwaes interfere when my grandpere is tokin 2 my mum..den my mum aso veh TUPID..began tokin 2 my dad..like wad..my garandpere is insignificant issit?!..he n my grandmere raised me up lor..sooooo HEARTLESS n INSENSITIVE!!!><..den my dad taught me math..den suddenly became damn impatient dunnoe becoz of wad..shouted sooo loud 2 me until i cried..like wadeva lar..adults=superman den young+elderly=junk?!..terribly pissified larhhhhhh!!!!!!XDDDDDDD...hope tmw would b fine coz nth 2 do @ home n cip tok is postponed...sighs..brb..

i HEART hols...!!!:)

2006-03-13T21:29:00.001-08:00

hiiiiiiiiii...omg..hvn posted 4 like 2 months+++...totally pissed wif myself..sighs..tis yr is so nice..208 rawk my butt man!!..now i luv my class so much..ppl r so nice n cute..omg..now den i realised tt sec 2 is sooo much fun-ner den sec 1..lol..juz came bk frm guides camp..><..slept frm 2~6pm..5 looooooooonnnnnnnnggggggg hrs!!haha..n ppl r gettin envious..aiyohhh...i m feelin so blessed n blissful now...but boredom n slackiness overwhelmed me..hehe..some "beautiful" [hrases 4 compo lar..c im like sooo generous..lol..givin n sharin my 'treasure' wif others..:),..feelin so random pissed wif some ppl nt mentioning who..nt my family n nt guides ppl..n definitely nt onions n two-oh-eightians!!!!!..:)..sending *luvs,hugs n kisses*..hehe..such a random n short post..now my bone is aching everywhere..:(...shall relax n go watch tv..:)..brb 4 now..

.........once upon a time..........in a faraway land.....

2006-01-12T20:54:00.000-08:00

..lalaz..hihi..it's a brand NEW yr!!!yea!!!*cheers..cheers..*ok but anywae..tis post is goin 2 be short..sighs didn hv the opportunity 2 post the last 2 wks..my appologies..juz signed in [as in resgistered] into msn messenger..it's like JUST ok JUST!!!fine..i m feelin so out-dated now..oh nvm..feelin quite stressed these days..luckily i quit french le..(: oh then some ppl will be shocked n they will go like, "Huh?!..How can u quit 3rd lang muz persevere lor..sighs so bad.."..oh yes..n the funniest 1 will be yanshan, "aiyoh..p.s tis is in chinese hanyu pinyin (hao3 bu4 rong2 yi4) same class as u then u quit..wahlau..damn bad lor..i'll hate u 4eva man..[which is so not true - coz tink tt she dun hate me..hahaz]..but too bad i quit le so yup..srys..thx guys 4 givin me all the support..(rang4 ni3 men2 shi1 wang4 le)..omg..i miss last yr..every1 in class was bonded..then tis yr leh separated n my present class is so NOT bonded lor..like we r all goin in cliques lar..n then our tchrs all so poor thing..they r tryin their best 2 stick us 2gether but XXX..haha..i noe 2day is still thurs n i m already slackin alot but i dun CARE!!!..btw hv every1 posted their 1st letter 2 ur mortals already??..oh yes..can ur tell me ur msn accounts? [so tt i can add 2 my new msn contacts list..thx alot..]..tis is a reallaye short post..nvm..ALL THE BEST 4 THIS YEAR!!! <3 ya..qy..(:

``---pattaya is my life!!!...---``

2005-12-22T19:24:00.000-08:00

...ok fine..i m admittin tt i hvnt posted 4 quite a few days or even wks can..i hv reasons!!!..lol..anywae went 2 thailand on the 17th dec..juz came bk yesterday..haha..5 full days..it was---wat can i say---um..SHIOK[x1oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...]..ooops tts too much but neva mind..first 2 days went pattaya..pattaya was sooo wonderful!!!..cant contain my excitement when i reached there..but ya..(:..our hotel was near the sea..coldCOLDcold...the nxt day we took speedboat to coral island..sighs..my dad went 2 enjoy flyin in the sky[um as in on a parachute]..my mum n grandfather enjoyed the sea breeze..haha..the water level was knee-deep u noe..the colour of the sea was so magical..it's lyke in layers..white green blue dark blue..omg..it's actually bout the same in tahitti[in south korea]..enjoyed b4 in korea still can enjoy again rite?YA!!!..-_-"'..anywae the adults were doin all those stuff mentioned above..hehe..guess wat was i doin?i bet u cant even guess hahaz..i was juz sittin there 4 1/2 an hour hvin my hair plaited in thin strands by some thai experts!..haha..veh funnaye..it turned out fabulous eventually wif u noe those colourful beads on..n guess how many plaits there r?..34 u noe..tts quite a lot isnt it?:)..i luved it shopped like siao in pattaya n bangkok..at last gettin the reward of clothes,cap,shoes n finally muscle aches..sheesh if i dun hv muscles then it's fats aches[grossy gross..harhar]..really enjoyed myself in thailand...hope u ppl hv enjoyed ur hols..will blog more bout my trip tmw..(:

sad..sad..):

2005-12-06T21:45:00.000-08:00

sad..sad..last 2nd day of alw..goin 2 miss my frens..lol..shermane..zhihan..sarah n the guys too [except chicken freak,glenn the gay n pinky-marcus]..thanx 4 being such great frens 2 me these days..(:..this morning went 2 alw myself by mrt..met sarah on the mrt again..hehe..such coincidence..bro came back @ 3am frm china..crazy..if i m him..then i m goin 2 die of exhaustion..:),..anywae..today was my alw exam..was muggin like xiao last nite..we were supposed 2 do the exam in the mornin..[straight away after we reached there ):]..ms kang is nice so..we dragged it after lunch..omg..lunch i ate chicken rice AGAIN (Brent's favourite..haha..) then after lunch..we dragged it till 3.25pm..horrible rite?!..heehee..oh yes!!!tt mosquito gossipped bout zhihan wif the chicken freak yesterday lar..say wat, "Look at how she stands lor.."..like wadeva lar..her standin posture nicer than zhihan's meh..lyke NO lor..n today she gossipped bout my sch culottes..like she dun noe how 2 appreciate then fine..say culottes as skirt somemore..wan 2 observe n gossip then look more closely lar..scared arh..like wat bout her..everyday wear the SAME skirt..neva wash..so it stinks lor..took the exam..ms kang gave us time extension..blessed..she's such a nice tchr[she was frm rgss aso..]..then she taught us some presentation skills..bout 2 go home then bro n jc keep on smsin me..they waited 4 me 4 quite long..then i didn go n meet them..felt quite bad actually..now aso feelin a bit guilty..really sry bro n jc..i didn mean it..took picture wif ms kang ,meexiam,jump-a-turn,sarah n shermane wif sher's cam..it was kinda sweet..hehe..sarah left 1st coz she got some sort of appointment..then jonathan,boonsiang,shermane n me went home 2gether..then jonathan alighted @ khatib coz he got tuition..bs,sher n i went 2 northpoint 2 take neo..quite shuang..then i went home n they took mrt back 2 woodlands[they live there obviously..]..tt's 4 today..tmw will be borin..stay @ home do nothing..): tis sunday goin costa sands 4 games n bbq party..wif sher n bs..anticipatin...........(:

alw rocks my butt..!!!..hehe..:)

2005-12-02T21:56:00.000-08:00

alw so rocks..!!..this saturday[tmw] is the empower u party somemore lor..oh man..i m really goin 2 enjoy it..um..today was------i dun noe..in the morning met sarah on the mrt @ bishan..we went 2 alw 2gether..it's THE morning so yar..dun feel lyke talkin n no atmosphere..then @ the lift lobby near the hdb gallery..knocked into a woman AGAIN..today not malay is chinese..wat luck..went into class..tchr hvnt reach..chicken freak listenin 2 dun noe wat song on the radio..@ the mean time disturbin fukang['THE ARTIST'] n takin his things..fukang seems sort of irritated n then rainbow[kairong],slimD[daniel] n jump-a-turn[jonathan---zhihan's husband..haha..] scolded him..daniel said sth like..'just put his shit down lar'..which was meant 2 be funny..laugh[*haha*]..tchr came in..started lesson..tested us on the dvd grid..read thru our journals..went 4 lunch @ mcdonalds..went back 2 class in time..saw the guys[kairong n jonathan---i tink] eating 'THE MONSTER SWEETS'..their mouths turnin 2 red n blue..aiyoyoh..terrible lar..so gross..then the whole class listened to some disney songs..hahahahahaha...playin some focusin games marcus[pinky] n i won..earn-ed points 4 our groups..wrote our essays plans n essays..mosquito was so late frm lunch coz she went home lar can..changed her clothes..reeeally vain lor..*puke*..lunch time was supposed 2 end @ 1.5opm..she came back @ 4.55pm........sheesh..terrible..horrible..:(:(:(..chicken freak kept takin my sweets[lakerol]..then shermane went xiaooo..sabo me!!!???..vomit blood..haiyohh..4get it..the MORE i tink..the ANGRIER n MORE FRUSTATED i get..lesson ended..went home..yakkatin n yakkatin in the mrt wif shermane,her bro,boonsiang,jonathan n sarah..reached home..practise-ed piano..did theory hw..went 4 piano lesson..FINALLY saw my original piano tchr..omg..miss him so much..he very nice n humourous 1 lor..reached home..had dinner..n slackin now..it's nice 2 complain everyday..tmw shud be quite bored..nothing 2 do @ home..sighs..but @ nite quite shiok coz goin 4 party..shall mug 4 my alw exam..jiayous!!!..:)

the mosquito..the chicken freak..n finally the idiot genius..

2005-12-01T20:04:00.000-08:00

today went for alw again..n again it was fun..n AGAIN i was disturbed by the mosquito n the chicken freak..:(:(:(..mosquito wore such thick makeup today..dark eyeshadow[light blue-colour],VERY dark eyeliner..omg..so disturbin..jonathan brought a jap song cd..it was blastin!!..frankly,i dun mind blastin music but it's lyke early in the morning pls..aiyoh..fine..then chicken freak was yakattin n yakkatin n yakattin all the way during class..alas he got glared or maybe juz stared at..harhar..like serve him rite lar..it seems a bit mean..but heck care..i juz felt like it..he so sux..yuck!!!..we had some quiz thing..n i hate the genius[eugene-he's frm RI 4 ur info.:(]..i hate him!!!..he beat me(by finishin 1st..n i finished 2nd..eeek..there's 19 ppl in my class..(:)wee..n then my frens n i went 4 lunch..n can u imagine the worst of the worst..?!..we met mosquito n chicken freak @ long john silver's..yikes..n in addition..they r lyke 2gether..they were sort of like gossipin bout dun noe wat..went back to class..not late..:).................lesson ended..i went home wif sarah coz shermane n zhihan need 2 go to take their hps..after repair..reached bishan..sarah alighted..i m alone..alighted..on the way passed by ntuc..knocked into a FAT malay woman wearin red..i was aimin 2 walk 2 my right 1st n she was still sort of like blockin me lar..then she gave me THE look n said 'tsst'..lyke wadeva lar..do i give the damn?!..she's juz fat n too heavy 2 move fine..omg..such a freak..went home...n started bloggin[tt's wat i m doin now..]..um..tt's all 4 today i tink..:)..

welcome..welcome..

2005-12-01T19:39:00.000-08:00

open sesame..hehe..hey peeps..tis is moi 2nd blog..WELCOME!!!:)